And so confused.

I have no one here. Im making friends, sure. But something is still missing. I can't pin point it, but I know I still need something to make me happier here.

Not to mention the trouble im having with my own emotions. its been years since high school, and my emotions about people then are changing. Everyday I find myself thinking about them, but in a slightly different way. I can't explain it.

And guys? Still fricken confusing!

Gah.

Okay, so I dated in high school. Who didn't. But out of the relationships I had was only on serious relationship. Lasted the longest. And I had the best time during that period of time in High School. And even after we wern't really dating anymore we still saw each other all the time, still talked all the time. Still talk all the time. But I havn't seen him in 2 years. And yes, ill admit, some of the feelings are still there. He still makes me laugh. And still understands me better than anyone. But is that enough? We are over 1200 miles apart now. And I dont know what he feels on the subject. But he is coming across to Colorado soon. And Ill be happy to see him again. So I guess when I see him I will understand better if we are simply great friends, or if we have a chance of being more again? But 1200 miles is still a LONG way away.And I dont plan on leaving until I finish school. And even then I dont want to go back to michigan. Not to live.

And to add confusing to the mix, theres this guy at work that according to his friends, Im like the first girl this guy has gotten close to in a WHILE. Which I dont know what to do about.

Life is hell.

Damn I hate life.